Alarm cuts through the dark again

Alarm cuts through the dark again
Another battle I don’t plan to win
Pills and coffee, fake a grin
The mirror shows the state I’m in

I stitch myself up when the moon is high
Tell myself another pretty lie
That tomorrow I’ll be fine, I’ll try
But I’m so damn tired of asking why

I'm so sick of waking up too soon
Sick of patching scars under a bruised moon
Living in a circle of my own pretend
Yeah, I'm done, this has to end
So I'm turning off my phone, pulling down the blind
No, I ain't friendly, and I've lost my mind
Every morning breaks me just the same
I'm so sick of playing this losing game

Three AM, I know that floor too well
Counting all the stories I can't tell
Every wound I stitch, every lie I breathe
Builds a cage where there's no room to leave

And the world outside keeps asking "Why?"
But the answer's buried where the shadows lie

Let the sun rise without me for once
Let the silence be my only response
I don't need your "how are you"s or light
I just need one goddamn peaceful night

Yeah… I'm turning off my phone.
No, I'm not friendly.
And I'm never waking up to your version of me again.