I didn't want to live,

[Verse 1]
I didn't want to live,
But the Lord decided otherwise.
I drowned myself in pills,
Sank deep in despair,
I killed myself, my own body,
I stained my soul with bloody marks,
Not knowing God's love, I sinned in great sorrow.

[Chorus]
I will wake up soon,
Don't save me.
Yes, I am so tired, but I will return,
Problems on earth — so what, let them burn.
Jesus saved me,
And Jesus saved you all too from eternal torment.

[Verse 2]
I thought I was unloved,
Hated like some piece of trash.
So much spite and bile in people,
Devoured by sin and vice.
But I had forgotten — the Lord loves me,
He would not let me die.
I opened my eyes, I came back again.

[Chorus]
I will wake up soon,
Don't save me.
Yes, I am so tired, but I will return,
Problems on earth — so what, let them burn.
Jesus saved me,
And Jesus saved you all too from eternal torment.

[Bridge]

If you, my friend,
Are not yourself,
Nothing goes your way —
Forgive yourself,
Don't commit suicide,
Turn to the Lord,
He will surely hear your prayer.