I hate my life,

I hate my life,
And this is not the first time.
I've been wearing this cold
For too long, too long
Every day is like a horror movie,
Where I didn't escape again...
 The voices in my head say:

 "You're still where it all started."

 And when I close my eyes,
It's not dreams - it's my old hell.
Every time it tears me apart,
Every time it brings me back.

I close my eyes (eyes)
And I see my fear
I close my eyes (eyes)
And I fall into the darkness again

I close my eyes (eyes)
And I hear that terrible scream
I close my eyes (eyes)
And pain is my only companion in life


On my palms is the ashes of burned days,
On my lips is a silent, frozen answer.
I learned to smile through this pain
There's nothing but torment in my worthless life.

 And it's not me in the mirror
I see someone else's reflection 
It looks into my eyes in return
as if it knows what I'm feeling,
Why in my heart 
The silence screams so loudly


And when I close my eyes,
There are no dreams - there is my old hell.
Every time it tears me apart,
Every time