I used to think with every turn

I used to think with every turn
The merry-go-round would crash and burn
And spit me out in yesterday
Where things were simple, less to weigh

You’re the one who sees my pain
Under the laughter, under the rain
Through the “I’m fine” and the louder voice
You sat with me and made me make a choice
You said, “Pick one, not both,
Stop laughing if your soul wants to cry”
And for the first time, I didn’t lie

When I was small, I believed
If you spin the carousel fast enough
It would creak and groan and lift off the ground
And turn into a time machine somehow
I’d go back to when I didn’t know how to hide
When my heart wasn’t armor, just a soft inside

But the years taught me tricks
How to bend, how to break, how to fix
A smile on my face like a window with a lock
Until you came along with the key and the shock

You’re the one who sees my pain
Under the laughter, under the rain
Through the “I’m fine” and the louder voice
You sat with me and made me make a choice
You said, “Pick one, not both,
Stop laughing if your soul wants to cry”
And for the first time, I didn’t lie